Your mercy, Lord...
It's what I've been singing about for a year or more.
God is so good!! He's so good to me!! He has blessed me so much! I live for Him.
Today, I was told by the financial administrator in my village that she had some good news for me. I was surprised and had an inkling of what that good news might be, but I didn't allow myself to hope too much.
I have been feeling for a while that I want a change. That I want something different, that I'm unsatisfied, that I want to go. But where? When? How? What do I need to do? What is the will of my God?
It seems that every year, I am looking for the next thing and though to me that sometimes sounds like I am an ungrateful child with a short attention span, other times I feel that this is what it's like to be on a journey towards my destiny. Following God, I believe He does have the next thing and the next thing for me. I believe He's bringing me closer and closer to extraordinary things and this morning has solidified that belief for me.
I've prayed and prayed and meditated and been still and listened. God brought me to the decision that would best glorify Him and was quite the practical point: get out of debt. I cannot move on or start something new unless I finish what I've started where I am. Right here. I kept feeling that God wanted me to be still and keep doing what I'm doing.
Almost three years ago I was starting a business and did not even think about the fact that one is not going to make money in the beginning. I got into debt with rent. They told me I could pay what I could and just owe them. They gave me a discount. For several months, I was struggling. I took on another job in another city which started out slow, but proved to be a very good place for me to be. Income was still patchy and up and down. On down slopes, I get really anxious and worry whether I'm in the right place doing the right thing. Trying to work everything out. There were times when I just forgot about rent.
Then I got motivated. I wanted to go to Ireland, I wanted to make changes in my life - possibly move closer to the new job that I love.
After all the praying and going over my finances over and over I did realize I needed to focus, focus, focus and throw every extra penny to my rent (little bit of an exaggeration, I still spent little bits of money here and there on extraneous things) Every time I got payed at work I would look at my budget and subtract that, and then whatever was left I wrote a check to rent.
So this morning, I walked to the finance office with my checkbook because Tuesdays is "pay-rent-day" and on the way, I talked to God and had a conversation that I often have with Him lately. I said,
"God, you are so good to me! You have provided for me in so many ways!! I praise you because you bless me more than I could ever thank you for! You've given me jobs that I can work hard at and reap rewards, but my reward is in heaven."
She said she had good news about my finances. The financial structure is going through changes and new things are on the horizon as far as rent goes. The finance committee is analyzing everything and asking how the young people are doing payment-wise. They saw that I am behind but that I have been faithful with writing checks for months.
They told me that because of my faithfulness, they would cut my debt in half and not invoice me in March. I would have a month to pay off that debt.
Praise the Lord! He grants pardon and rewards those who are faithful. He is so kind! I'm so grateful and just feel that it is an inspiration from God to keep going and to remember He loves me and has more for me!
Praise the Lord! He grants pardon and rewards those who are faithful. He is so kind! I'm so grateful and just feel that it is an inspiration from God to keep going and to remember He loves me and has more for me!
